Covid in MAEPS: A Blessing in Disguise.

 Assalamualaikum wbt.

Dengan nama Allah yg Maha Pemurah 

lagi Maha Penyayang.

Eid Adha 2021 : Klang, Selangor.

It's been a long time since my last entry here; a poem entitled "Hole" (click here to read the poem in my previous entry). I read it again just now and it left me in awe. I sounded so deep and immersed in my own world haha. I remembered back in my IPG years, i was so into poems writing that i could say this passion of mine led to a nice collection of English poems, solely written by myself. Hahah can you imagine to that extent? I wrote about 9 poems during my foundation year (if im not mistaken) and another 21 poems during my degree years. All of them varied in different genres but i found my interests mostly in motivational, relationships and scientific poems. Unfortunately, i lost all of them due to inability of my phone storage. I tell you, if you ever involve yourself in writing, always have a copy on physical paper...please do not repeat my mistake; keeping notes and poems in the phone ain't worth it :'(

But hey...why did i rant over past mistake? Hahaha lain yg nak dicerita, lain yg ditulis. Anyways...

Just wanna share a few snippets of my life in 2021. It has been almost 4 years i didn't write anything on my blog. Somehow i believe Allah led me here today to share a few reflections from my current life. I hope it will be of benefits for you :)

As you can see from the picture above, i'm currently an English language teacher at a primary school in Klang, Selangor. I've been posted here in the middle of February this year. Alhamdulillah, I passed my Bachelor degree and SPP interview with flying colours. I rented a house with my housemates, started my new job and owned a good salary. Nothing fancy, i just lead a normal life like how a novice teacher is but not gonna lie, there are a few things (or life tests i would say) occured on me for the past few months. 

But the highlight is, right now...the moment i'm writing this entry, i'm currently undergoing the recovery phase of a "long covid" patient. Yes, i was tested positive for covid recently. As we all know Malaysia, including other countries worldwide are fighting their very best against this virus. It has been an arduous journey i would say? Because it took our time, youth, family members, happiness and many more in just 2 years. In a blink of an eye, everything is different now. We have the new norms, which applied to all sectors and people, be it government or private, youngsters or elders, even the babies too. 

My personal experience, i'm a stage-3 covid survivor and i was admitted into MAEPS Serdang (a quarantine centre for covid patients in Selangor). It was once in a lifetime experience as i learnt countless lessons here. I got to meet a nice 50 y/old auntie with abundance wisdom and fruitful advices and also a 60 y/old auntie who is an anti-vaccine. What a contradict situations right? 

I also learnt the real meanings behind daily phrases "put our trust in Allah" and "be patient, Allah will help you". I admit they are easier said than done. Being a covid survivor put me in a position where i lose myself whilst fighting the virus, being far from home, family and friends, and started to realise that Allah is the only One whom i could turn to. I tell you, this was the turning point in my life where i felt much closer to Him. Closer in my ablutions, my prayers, my taubat, my daily intentions, my mind and also my heart. 

Can you imagine? The last few hours before you're taken to MAEPS by an ambulance, the doctor reminds you to label your belongings with full name together with your waris' name, because none would ever know if you'll come back healthy in piece, or end up be buried in grave. Pardon for my harsh language but my point here is, i knew that THAT moment was not a joke. But alhamdulillah, Allah saved me. My 9-days quarantine in MAEPS is the biggest flex and greatest blessing ever in my life, truly alhamdulillah. 

But it did not end there :'( i continued my normal life after quarantine but my body just refused to give me full cooperation. Little did i know, it was fighting against long covid and depression inside. Yes, you heard me. I was diagnosed with long covid symptoms and early signs of depression (not many of my family members and friends know about this but i took a huge step to expose it here since i could only express my feelings through writing). Allah knows how hard it was for me. I hid it and fought alone. I did not want to seek for help or involve anyone except for the doctors. I strongly believe that i've already caused much troubles since day-1 i was tested positive. 

However, i was wrong. Being tested with so many things rang me a bell that every man can never live alone. Even Allah said in the Quran, He made Hawa from Prophet Adam as a companion. He did not cast Prophet Adam away from the heaven and leave him alone on earth. Only He knows what's best for His creations. He is the Most Merciful, Kind and Generous of all. 

Thus, an abrupt of realisation; if it was not for Allah's love, my family's, friends' and closed ones' supports, i wouldn't be writing here right now. I wouldn't have the energy to share my experience and tell you how truly kind and generous Allah is. I wouldn't have the chance to breathe for the second time after every shortness of breath, vomitting, chest and muscle pain, fever and headache i had (long covid). It's like i'm having the second chance of life tho i'm still struggling to recover. Truly alhamdulillah :)

There's so much more i wanna share with you. I could go on and on all day but my body needs a rest now. Just few last words, fighting against covid and depression both at the same time is definitely not an easy battle. People might never notice that because i wouldnt show them my struggles. I hid them, for only Allah knows why. It was really hard and painful. In shaa allah, i'll try my best to recover and put my dependency solely to Him. He surely will help me. He tests me endlessly to exercise my sabr and upgrade my inner strength. Hopefully in shaa Allah :) 

If you're in the same boat as mine, fighting with tests after tests in life, please do not be sad. Talk to Allah when others aren't available for you. Cry to Him when your family isn't around. Tell Him your worries and sorrows when others seem to disconnect from you. Most importantly, ask for His forgiveness in your prayers because we will never know how much sins we have done our whole life...which may be the roots of our struggles and life tests. 

I hope, my humble sharing here would mould a positive mindset for us to keep on fighting. In shaa Allah, we got this!

~ Fai, Malaysia: 6.58 pm

"Always note that Allah will never leave us alone. He sees, listens and cares for us. He is the only who will stay by our sides despite of what had happened. He will never write anything bad in our journey of life. Please remember that."

Hole

Assalamualaikum wbt ^_^

Alhamdulillah, another night in my college, another chance to live in His rahmat and nikmat. Long time no see. A silent blogger i am. However, when his words crossed my mind, i think i need to write a new entry. "He" whom triggered me to write again. Thank you, my friend. At least, by having and knowing you reading my blog, i have that force to push me to write. write. and write. In shaa Allah.

Just a random thought. i wrote this poem yesterday and i wanted to share with you guys. i am not a poetic person but i love reading poems so much. it's like a remedy when you are having a crossword puzzle in your mind. hahaha. not crossword puzzle lah. just an empty heart would be at ease when you are reading a poem *but not to the same extent of peaceful and calm feelings when we are reading quran* *if you know what i mean* 

I was writing this poem yesterday because i wanted to portray my feelings. my current feelings.

So...here is the poem...

HOLE

Days went by,

I felt the burden.

Holding on to you,

Made me fell,

Into a deep hole.

I couldn't stop my heart,

It's getting suffocated,

And stranded,

Without knowing the ending.

Yes, it's clueless but,

I still pray for the best.

I want to escape,

This hole is dark.

Darker as I grew inside.

But I'm hesitated,

Why?

I don't know.

I always pray,

If there's a light,

That Allah would send me.

I hope,

I fell down no more.

Let it be on the right time,

Where I could rely,

Where I know my final destination.

It's all about time.

I doubt,

How we would end. 

I'm afraid you're not the right one.

Nor my final destination.

But,

I leave you to Allah.

If you're the right one,

You'll come back to me.

For now,

Let me escape myself,

From this hole.

-Aqil Syahira-

Malaysia, 5.49pm

15 July 2017

*ihsan Google Images*

Quotes of the day ~

" Berbahagialah andai ikhtilatmu terjaga. Jika kamu terlalu rapat dengan lelaki tanpa ikatan yang sah, itu bukanlah suatu kebanggaan. Jagalah hatimu sebagaimana Allah menjagamu dari kecewa. "

SALAM UKHUWAH!

Life Lesson 1

Assalamualaikum wbt ^_^

Dengan Nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang. 

Alhamdulillah, segala puji bagi Allah yang memberikan nikmat kepada kita dalam kehidupan seharian. Nikmat makan, nikmat ibadah, nikmat puasa, nikmat ilmu, nikmat ibu dan ayah dan nikmat sahabat ^_^ ya, tanpa kita sedar, sahabat ni susah nak cari. Kita ingatkan senang rupanya sahabat ni definisi dia lain guys. Fai sendiri rasa nikmat sahabat ni tak semua orang boleh capai melainkan kita 'betul-betul' cari. Dan nak capai 'keikhlasan' dalam bersahabat tu lagi lah payah. Masha Allah. 

Kenapa fai letak tajuk Life Lesson 1? Ada beberapa sebab:

1. Fai dah lama tak menulis *as usual lah huhu*

2. Fai ditegur oleh sahabat fai *lebih kepada nasihat dalam keadaan dia marah sebenarnya haha*

3. Fai baru dapat insight, why not i share this with you guys because i think this experience of mine is worth of sharing in shaa Allah. 

Sahabat. Tegur. Marah. Terima vs terasa. Ikhlas ke tak. Ubah sikap sendiri. Atau buat don't know je. *hmmmm* sebenarnya kan boleh je fai tulis ayat ayat berikut tanpa tanda noktah tapi fai nak tekankan apa yang berlaku sebenarnya. Alhamdulillah, fai ditegur oleh sahabat fai semalam berkenaan satu sikap fai yang 'terlebih concern' sampai membuatkan dia rimas dan terasa seperti fai perkecilkan kebolehan dia untuk hidup berdikari. You know guys, manusia ni rambut sama hitam tapi hati lain lain. Tak semua benda yang kita buat orang akan suka DAN tak semua benda yang kita rasa perlu diletakkan pada tempatnya orang akan rasa benda yang sama. Tak guys. Tak. 

Itu yang fai belajar semalam. I got this one habit to ask whether she is okay or not to stay alone (fyi, we are housemates since foundation) but she did not like it when i keep asking her that. In my point of view, i asked her A LOT if she is okay or not to stay alone during weekend or semester break because i am CONCERN and it shows my RESPONSIBILITY, CARE AND RESPECT towards her but in her point of view, she took it as a stress, annoying question and as something which she prefers not to have it. Well guys, do you see? 

Every people got different INTERPRETATIONS and INTENTIONS. I understood my habit well because i really meant it to an extent that i care for her. However, she understood my habit as an annoyance that she wanted me to stop from doing that. Oh, well. I have stopped. Alhamdulillah, when she burst out yesterday regarding this matter, i could cope successfully without any hard feelings. Truly alhamdulillah *because fai ni orang yang sensitif but fai boleh je terima nasihat orang cuma perlu dalam keadaan yang berhemah dan lemah lembut* tapi in her case, i hid my feelings and continued eating huhu because i did not want to bring this matter any further. 

So, the lesson are:

1. Fikir dulu perasaan sahabat kita before tanya apa apa soalan *even tanya dah makan ke belum* sebab tak semua orang suka untuk diambil berat.

2. Letakkan diri kita pada posisi sahabat kita, apa yang kita akan buat kalau kita berdepan situasi yang sama macam dia DAN apa yang boleh kita lakukan sebagai kawan.

3. Setiap masalah boleh dibawa berbincang. Kalau sahabat kita jenis yang susah nak luahkan perasaan, tanya dia apa yang dia nak, apa yang dia suka dan apa yang dia tak suka *do not end up like me sobs sobs*

4. Hormati sahabat kita, biar banyak mana pun keburukan dia, terimalah seadanya sebab kita tak tau berapa banyak dah keburukan kita yang dia boleh terima dan hadap selama ni ^_^

5. Kalau sahabat kita tengah marah, jangan cepat melenting. Sabar dan diam. Jangan bercakap sampai dia habis luahkan apa yang dia rasa. In the end, angguk dan minta maaf atas kesalahan yang kita lakukan. Rasulullah sendiri suka pada orang yang meminta maaf dulu berbanding orang yang memaafkan ^_^

6. Lastly, cuba untuk terima teguran sahabat kita. Terasa boleh tapi jangan tunjuk DAN jangan jadi ego sangat. Sahabat ni payah nak dapat. Kalau dah ada, jagalah baik baik. In shaa Allah. 

Ya, enam list tadi tu adalah refleksi dari apa yang fai dapat lepas peristiwa semalam *cehh takde lah peristiwa sangat pun cuma kena marah sikit je and i'm okay with that in shaa Allah* fai harap dapat beri manfaat pada hamba Allah luar sana. Terutamanya kamu! Ya, orang yang sedang membaca ini ^_^ jaga diri. Jaga iman. See you in next post!

Quotes of the day ~

" Sekiranya kita sedang berusaha mencari Allah, itu tandanya kita sedang berusaha mencari bahagia. "

SALAM UKHUWAH!

HECTIC YEAR ='(

Assalamualaikum wbt ='(

the new me. in shaa Allah =')

Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, Allahuakbar, Masha Allah. Setelah sekian lama tidak menjengah blog ini, banyaknya comments from adik-adik ='( maafkan kak fai. akak betul-betul busy sejak kebelakangan ini. hmmm.

Ya Allah. rasa bersalah sangat sebab tak sempat dan tak mampu nak reply comments adik-adik di blog akak ini. terutamanya dalam post akak terdahulu Pengalaman Temuduga Biasiswa Jpa Mara dan juga Pengalaman Ujian Kelayakan Calon Guru 2015. maafkan akak ='(

Sibuk sangat dengan jadual di sini buatkan akak takde masa nak reply satu-satu apatah lagi nak bacanya huhu. apa-apa pun semoga Allah permudahkan urusan kalian dalam merebut tempat di IPG atau JPA-MARA. percayalah pada Allah. kalau ada rezeki, in shaa Allah ada. kalau tak dapat tawaran yang adik-adik nak, it is okay dear, chill sebab Allah tahu, ini bukannya masa yang sesuai untuk apa yang adik mohon tu. Dia ada plan lagi baikk punyaa untuk adik ^_^

Right now, the moment akak tengah type ni pun adalah exam week. dua hari lagi akak ada paper. Doakan akak ^_^ buka blog ini pun sebab tergerak hati nak baca komen dan ternyata blog akak bersarang labah-labah, kekatu, semut merah hitam semua ada huhuhu

Kak fai ada banyak sangat-sangat-sangat story nak share tapi masa takde. huhu. my style of writing entry pun dah berubah *huwaa, nak nanges ='(* nantilah. in shaa Allah free akak post lagi entry yang baru. mostly ini pengalaman akak as university student. tak lebih dan tak kurang macam experience hamba Allah sebaya akak di luar sana. hopefully kita semua dilimpahkan rahmat oleh Allah dan dipermudahkan segala urusan dalam kehidupan ini. Aamiin ya rabbal alamin. 

Akhir kata, *acewahh ko fai macam tulis surat je muahaha* but this is serious. i want to ask for forgiveness from all of you if i might hurt or affect your SAC or UKCG or any of your INTERVIEW because of my ignorance on your comments. Allah SWT know how hard my life was this year back. He knows how i am struggling and striving for excellence. forgive all my mistakes and i hope and i wish and i pray your success dear adiks. believe in Allah. i could not promise you my word but i always know, Allah promise His word ^_^ in shaa Allah!

tenkiu for reading this entry!

today's quote <3

"Seluruh isi alam ini, makhluk-makhlukNya, dan ciptaan di muka bumi ini, Allah yang pegang. Allah yang Maha Berkuasa. Percaya padaNya, bergantung pada Dia. In shaa Allah ada rezeki kita tu nanti. Hati manusia pun Allah yang pegang. Doa banyak-banyak. Itu yang penting."

SALAM UKHUWAH!

Tangan Ma yang Berseni ^_^

Assalamualaikum wbt ^_^ 

ramadhan nak dekat dah ! 6 more days to go ! hoyeahh ^_^

AMARAN ! ENTRY INI LUAHAN HATI

FAI 100% . JANGAN TEKAN BUTANG 

EXIT ONCE ANDA SUDAH BACA !

apa khabar wahai rakyat alam maya semua ? muahaha , entry sebelum ni mood serious kan ? so , fai nak santai sikit dis time ^_^ fai in the mood nak bergurau but tiada orang boleh gurau dengan fai . hmm * -_- * dah lama tak menaip , terasa tangan ini kaku pula .

ehem , test , test ! disebabkan lama tak update , fai gagahkan diri juga untuk menaip entry ini walaupun tiada langsung sekeping cerita yang boleh fai kongsikan * menyedihkan T_T * apa-apa pun , fai nak juga merepek , merapu , meroyan di sini sebagai memenuhi permintaan kawan fai * amira pemilik blog la tahzan *  yang rindukan buah tangan dari blog aqiL SyahirA ^_^ * acewahh ! ayat perasan habis ! hahagaha *

nampak tak fai merapu di atas ? okay enough fai ! * tapi yang permintaan sahabat fai tu betul-betul berlaku eh * ^_^ hmm , marhaban ya Ramadhan ^_^ memandangkan ramadhan just around the corner , fai harap rakyat hawa jelata sekalian sudah ganti puasa lah ye ? yang dah ganti tu , bawak-bawaklah puasa sunat eh ? alhamdulillah ! tak sabar nak tunggu bulan penuh barakah ini ^_^ * eksaitednyaa !!! *

memandangkan fai masih menjadi penganggur terhormat vs mereput di rumah , hidup menghabiskan beras , men'sado'kan badan * wahh , kompleks metafora ni cehh * maka , fai meluangkan masa dengan berpuasa ^_^ * di samping menguruskan badan yang sado * -_-

puasa di rumah best ! Ya Allah ! * macam mana lah nak puasa kat tempat orang nanti . hmmm * ma memang sweet . ma paling best in the world ! masakkan for me ^_^ hehegehe * sebab ma tau anak dia pemalas vs mereput di rumah * hari ni paling sweet ! gorengkan mee and segala macam khazanah sejuk beku frozen elsa dalam fridge tu . alhamdulillah ! terharu nyaaa ! sayaaaaaanngggg ma !

ma siap cakap lagi pada le adik , " dapat pahala ni masak untuk orang nak berbuka puasa " . Allah ! sucinya hati seorang ibu ^_^ air tangan ibu memang sedap walau hanya telur dadar . masak sendiri rasa tak cukup rasa . * agaknya lah kan , Allah memang dah jadikan enzim-enzim pada tangan para ibu ni rasanya penuh kasih sayang kan ? sebab tu lah , masakan ibu selalu sedap ^_^ *

sesungguhnya diri ini tidak sabar nak berpuasa , terawih dalam bulan Ramadhan ^_^ Ya Allah dekatkanlah hati keluarga kami dan seluruh umatMu kepada ramadhan serta turunkanlah rahmatMu buat kami semua . amiinn . in shaa Allah ^_^

alhamdulillah , bulan lepas , keluar keputusan ppismp ambilan jun ni . alaahh , ipg tu . and alhamdulillah fai dapat ^_^ sekarang fai dalam proses istikharah , memilih antara dua pilihan . in shaa Allah . 1 ramadhan ni , fai harap hati fai akan tenang dan mudah buat keputusan . in shaa Allah . 

apa-apa pun keputusannya nanti , luhur dari hati , fai senang sekali dan mahu ucapkan terima kasih pada mereka yang sudi baca luahan hati fai dalam entry lepas mengenai dilema ke kys melaka . dan tahniah juga pada sahabat-sahabat alam maya yang fai tidak kenal , jauh sekali pernah berjumpa , tetapi sudi komen di blog fai dan nyatakan mereka juga dapat tawaran kys melaka , course yang sama seperti fai . alhamdulillah ! kalian memang best ^_^ tahniah wani yaacop dan kazumi123 dan muhamad hazim ^_^ moga kalian sentiasa sukses ! in shaa Allah . * fai minta maaf pada wani sekiranya fai tidak dapat hubungi wani atas sebab-sebab tertentu * but , whatever happen , fai will try my best to keep in touch with you guys . hoyeahhh !

okay lah , kepada kamu yang tengah baca entry ini ! hehe , selamat menyambut bulan ramadhan khasnya bagi kaum muslimin dan juga muslimat ^_^ sekian . . .

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~ tidak lama lagi , kita akan berlepas menaiki pesawat RAMADHAN AIR 

~ dengan jangka masa penerbangan 30 HARI 

~ di atas permukaan LAPAR dan DAHAGA 

~ sila pakai tali PUASA anda 

~ tegakkan SOLAT anda 

~ jauhkan dari RASA IRI HATI

~ dan elakkan dari asap PERSELISIHAN

~ terdapat tiga pintu kecemasan 

~ pintu kecemasan di hadapan ialah PINTU PAHALA

~ pintu kecemasan di tengah ialah PINTU KEAMPUNAN 

~ dan pintu kecemasan di bahagian belakang ialah PINTU KEBAJIKAN

~ selamat menikmati penerbangan anda ! 

~ saya , AQIL SYAHIRA , co-pilot pesawat anda mengucapkan SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK ! 

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hehegehe ^_^ amacam ? classs tak ucapan fai ? okay guys ! out dulu . assalamualaikum wbt !

tenkiu for reading dis entry !

today's quotes <3

" the amazing feeling when you look back and realize what Allah gave you and took away from you as only for your own good ! believe this ! "

SALAM UKHUWAH ! 

Takdir Allah tak pernah salah. Manusia yang selalu menyalahkan takdir mereka...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang...

Auckland University in New Zealand 

*throwback three days ago*

25 Mei 2015 , tarikh semakan keputusan rayuan jpa-mara . yes , fai did the appeal and fai got it . SAINS SOSIAL  : A-LEVEL di Kolej Yayasan Saad International School Melaka : NEW ZEALAND . at first , fai gave up and pasrah , teruskan dengan persiapan untuk ke UIA . " maybe there's no chance for me " but then it ended up like dis . after all , alhamdulillah . rezeki Allah itu luas . siapa yang tak nak belajar overseas ? human being kan , always love something new , golden opportunity like dis . fai pun begitu , walau tak pernah terfikir nak fly , tetap gembira dapat offer ini . terkadang diri fai ni serba salah . fai hanya hamba Allah , banyak khilaf , dosa yang fai lakukan sama ada sedar or tak , tapi Allah masih memberi nikmat yang cukup besar pada diri fai . tak tahu apakah perlunya rasa terharu itu atau rasa malu ? 

the interview for jpa-mara went well ( click here to read my experience for jpa-mara's interview ) , but fai was not offered for the first intake . then , fai did the appeal , itu pun really exact the last day for appealing by online . truly , really exact on 12:15am . hmm , tak pernah terdetik di hati fai untuk belajar overseas , time secondary school before , when teacher ask who wants to study overseas , fai didnt hands up my hand . why ? because fai didnt want it . then why ? memang tak minat . tak pernah rasa yang diri ini mampu fly ke luar negara in order to further studies . Alhamdulillah , Allah beri rezeki tak terjangka . tapi saat ini , detik fai menaip entry ini , diri fai keliru . hati fai tak tenang . fai tak tahu ke mana hala tuju dan arah pengajian yang fai patut pergi . sememangnya manusia tak tahu bersyukur kan ? 

~ surah Ar-Rahman (55:13)

" so , which of the favors of your Lord would you deny ? "

" maka , nikmat Tuhan kamu manakah yang kamu dustakan ? "

Ya Allah , tenangkanlah hati ini . tetapkanlah ia pada satu pilihan yang tetap , muktamad dan dilimpahi rahmat dan berkatMu .........

dapat aja tawaran jpa-mara , fai masih di awang-awangan . tak tahu nak buat apa untuk tetapkan hati ini . hanya pergi ke sana ke mari , settlekan segala macam dokumen , pembukaan akaun CIMB , matikan setem , print out itu ini , and of course semuanya memerlukan duit . ya , duit . duit yang selesaikan semua urusan yang melibatkan duit . * abah , sory sebab syira banyak guna duit abah . * Allah , lepas istikharah , mula dapatkan pencerahan , Allah gerakkan hati ini untuk search di google , tanya orang itu , orang ini , call KYSIS Melaka , call kawan-kawan , call senior yang ambil bidang sains sosial di A-level . alhamdulillah , ada penerangan dan mula nampak jalan yang bakal fai tempuhi . 

ternyata A-level itu senang berbanding IB , tetapi susah bagi fai kerana adanya subjek Maths . Ya Allah , fai bukanlah pakar otak kiri . fai ini seorang manusia yang sangat lemah dalam calculation . but not in simple maths . fai still can catch up for it . hanya kerana kekurangan yang satu ini , hati fai mula berbolak-balik . gundah-gulana . tak tahu nak tafsirkan perasaan diri ini bagaimana . Allah . tapi hajat hati memang nak fly . sangat-sangat ! tapi pengajian A-level menggunakan kertas peperiksaan dari UK , yang mana , skema jawapan juga dari UK dan berkemungkinan besar examiner juga dari UK * ini fai tak pasti sangat because of lack of infos about it * . and also , before fai taip entry ini , fai search contoh soalan exam Mathematics for A-level . dah tengok link soalan ni ? macam mana ? susah or senang ? nah ! tengok link ni pula for many options . soalannya lebih kurang addmaths di peringkat spm tetapi makin diteliti , difahami dan dijawab , lebih sukar dan sulit . bagi fai , hanya tuhan yang tahu apa fai rasa . * fai can't explained it * 

tetapi hati fai rasa senang sengat-sangat sebab 

~ habis first degree overseas , kontrak perjanjian kerja dengan government 4 tahun 

* really a super duper benefit for fai , tak perlu susah-susah nak apply kerja *

~ segala macam yuran pengajian , penginapan , elaun sara hidup dan wang saku ditaja oleh pihak jpa-mara tanpa perlu bayar semula satu sen pun melainkan langgar kontrak perjanjian biasiswa 

* super benefit pada fai sebab tak perlukan susahkan ma and abah untuk support all the fees *

~ KYSIS Melaka ni adalah antara international school yang yuran pengajiannya termahal di Malaysia 

* baru tau fakta ini dari Mama and alhamdulillah , got the chance to study here . if study here lah *

* all the information above fai search dari google

or dapatkan dari hamba Allah sekeliling *

esok , in shaa Allah result ipg pula keluar . fai makin-makin tak tenang , again , gundah-gulana . di ipg memang fai mohon bidang yang fai nak . tapi hanya Allah yang lebih mengetahui . Allah yang tentukan apa yang terbaik untuk fai . if fai dapat ipg , sememangnya tiada offer atau ruang untuk fai further ke overseas dalam masa 5 tahun melainkan fai dah posting ke mana-mana sekolah and sambung kerja untuk beberapa tahun before apply untuk sambung master abroad . in shaa Allah . itu sahaja pilihan yang fai ada . 

Ya Allah tetapkanlah hati ini . kuatkanlah hati ini........

tenkiu for reading dis entry !

today's quotes 

" everything is happening exactly as it is supposed to , with hidden blessings that you will soon understand . sometimes , what appears to be a problem is actually an answered prayer in disguise "

~PURE MATRIMONY

SALAM UKHUWAH !

Sunnah Muhammad SAW dan Kisahnya Dengan Cincin

Assalamualaikum wbt ^_^

kaifa haluki ? kaifa haluka ? apa khabar ? ^_^ in shaa Allah hari ini fai nak share tentang kisah rasulullah dan cincin baginda . ramai yang tidak tahu sunnah memakai cincin ini . especially for kaum adam @ lelaki , hangpa kat luaq sana , wajib aihh baca nih ! baguihh amal , dapat pahala . banyak lesson yang akan membuatkan kita rasa kagum terhadap baginda ^_^ okay straight to the point ! lets begin .

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~ zaman dahulu , segala urusan surat-menyurat ini memerlukan cop mohor terutamanya yang melibatkan prosedur antarabangsa 

~ maka , Rasulullah pun membuat cincin , untuk dipakai + logo serta moto dan simbol negara baginda * so , anytime baginda harus turunkan cop mohor , hanya cop menggunakan cincin baginda *

~ zaman tersebut , jika prosedur antarabangsa tidak bercanggah dengan islam , dibenarkan untuk melaksanakan dan mengikutinya 

~ maka Rasulullah menempah sebentuk cincin , dan melakarkan syiarnya di atas muka cincin itu * hebat kan Rasulullah , tiada sesiapa pun yang mampu meniru cop sebegini apatah lagi orang-orang kafir *

~ ia ditulis dari bawah ke atas *alaahh , macam gambar cincin kat atas tu * * tak paham jugak ? fai tunjukkan gambar jelas sikit * hehe

moga-moga guys faham and dapat imagine bentuk
cincin baginda after tengok gambar cikgoogle ni -_-

~ kalimah Allah dilakarkan di atas sekali 

menunjukkan Allah Maha Tinggi ,

Maha Besar .

~ Rasulullah memakai cincin itu , dan melarang orang lain yang memakai cincin juga menggunakan syiar / logo / simbol yang sama *nampak tak hebatnya pemikiran baginda yang tidak mahu orang lain meniru islam ? * ^_^

~ tetapi zaman Saidina Uthman , ada seorang Yahudi yang meniru cincin yang diguna untuk urusan surat-menyurat sehingga menimbulkan fitnah dan salah faham antara negara

~ menyebabkan huru-hara , thats why tidak boleh ciplak or tiru hak cipta orang lain apatah lagi cop rasmi sesebuah negara 

meh sini fai nak share adab-adab memakai cincin :

# setiap kali masuk tandas , Rasulullah akan buka cincin ini * kan ada nama Allah di atasnya ? *

# Rasulullah memakai cincin di jari kelingking baginda dan muka cincin itu dihala ke dalam tapak tangan 

# Rasulullah kan lelaki , jadi baginda hanya memakai cincin yang keseluruhannya perak or akik * no emas at all ! *  * please take note ye * -_-

# ada satu masa ni , Rasulullah berbual dengan para sahabat , baginda menggerak-gerakkan cincin tersebut lalu menanggalkan dan menyimpannya . maka 

- sahabat tanya kenapa ya Rasulullah ?

- Rasulullah menjawab bahawa cincin itu

mengalihkan perhatiannya dan menyebabkan

baginda tidak fokus memandang wajah sahabat

ketika sedang berbual .

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Subhanallah ! hebat sungguh peribadi baginda , fokus ketika sedang berbual bersama sahabat melebihi segalanya . sehingga menanggalkan cincin di jarinya . agak-agak kita zaman sekarang , hormat tak pada kawan dan parents kita apabila bercakap ? pandang wajah mereka tak ? * hmmm , fai pun turut jauh termenung dan memikirkannya * 

peringatan untuk diri ini juga . selemah-lemah insan di dunia ini . sama-sama kita memperbaiki diri . wallahualam

tenkiu for reading dis entry !

today's quote <3

"if you want to be a doctor ,don't aim to be a doctor , aim to be a hospital "

~DR.NORMAN ALI KHAN 

SALAM UKHUWAH !